I find myself being shown the same things over and over. One day I’m given an amazing revelation, and the next I’ve forgotten all about it and I’m left wondering where I went wrong. It’s hard to be close to someone really neat, and know that they don’t see you the way you see them. I just want to be myself (that is, who God created me to be). As long as I’m accomplishing/focused on that… the rest of the world starts falls away. Yes, I still want certain things. I can’t say that I’m ready to give up. What I can say is this, I know I will be no less of a person if I don’t get what I want. My heart is already full.
